Oprah's Lifeclass

     Oprah is back.  I can hear the groans now.  I don't care though.  Years ago she got me to pick up A New Earth and it began a shift in me like no other.  I read it.  I followed the webcasts.  I started to make changes.  She mentioned more than once that you need to read certain parts over and over to really get them.  It's been years now since I've read it.  It changed my life.  I thought that was it.  I had no idea that it was just a sample of the changes I would be experiencing.  It was the appetizer for the huge seven course meal I was about to devour. 
     I am ten months into the challenge of the daily new thing.  I thank this challenge on a daily basis for helping me to strive to be better, to do more, to keep going.  Some days might seem simple but it is usually in those days I have done something very complicated.  The days where the new thing is "hard"  is because I have made it my main focus.  Some days I just need something to keep me from falling apart.  Yesterday I set the dvr to record Oprah and her new show.  But by late tonight I knew I needed to watch it.  It is one of the hardest days yet and no new restaurant, craft project or recipe will fix it.  I needed to go back to the beginning of the movement.  She just happened to be right back there, too.  The universe works that way if you are open to it. 
     So it's nearly midnight and I've just been reminded about the basics of Tolle.   The ego needs to be recognized in order to take away its power.  I had been spending all day asking, "Why ME?!?".  That was the ego popping up again after a very long time of keeping him caged up and hungry.  I've gotten quite good at seeing things very differently....but he gets us when we are tired, weary and broken down.  The show reminded me about some key points.  Stuff isn't who we are.  When we do for others in order to get something back...it is the ego.  It will lead to resentment.   It's ok when others have an opinion because we are the ones who decide to give it power or not.  She even talked about being a certain weight and how if you are bigger it puts people at ease which then makes them comfortable with you...which then gives you their approval.   So many things I really needed to hear today more than any other day in months.  This battle to be more than I've been... feels like boot camp, a full-time job, labor and everything else that is hard.  It is relentless if you are doing it right.  I'm up for the fight but tonight I needed the support.  Earlier, in my other blog I wrote of "aha moments".  It was way before I saw the show...in fact I started that post a while back but never posted it until today.  I didn't even know Oprah had a new show starting up until just yesterday.  An aha for an aha has to be worth some special Oprah bonus points, right?!? It is now midnight and I puffy eyed girl needs to get some sleep.  I apologize if some of this doesn't make sense.   I apologize if you hate Oprah.  But since my ego is in check I won't be offended...see it's working already!!!