Thursday, January 20, 2011

Brush my teeth while listening to Coldplay and standing on my left foot

     This challenge of mine was to do something I've never done before each day.  I can safely say I have never done that before.  I was standing there loading my toothbrush with minty freshness and my ipod with some soothing Coldplay pondering my daily challenge for the new.  I had just walked by the table full of bills leftover from my Mom.  My Dad knows nothing about how to bank, pay bills, etc...so it has become my daunting new task.  I had walked down the hallway past the pile of Christmas stuff still lingering though it's late in January.  I had moved a load of laundry into the washer and dryer and was standing next to the other three waiting to go.   I won't even begin to talk about the mail piles,  kids' room or the other signs of a family that was put on pause.  We were running back and forth to the hospital for what seemed like forever.  Today I had time.  The kids were out, the dog was quiet, my Dad was ok and I was off from work.  Today I would scurry from task to chore to room to coffee refill... tirelessly.  Or so I thought because here I am at only 2:35 pm exhausted.
     Ok, ok...so what's the point with my challenge?  Well, I have done all of these tasks and chores before.  Nothing new there.  I didn't want to bog myself down with some crazy new THING to do but I really had to get this stuff DONE!  So back to the vanity mirror in the bathroom...  I stood there and the music and teeth brushing began and so did the tears at the thought of all I had to get past today.  It was in that moment and when some lyrics started to seep into my head that I realized I could take control of this heavy moment.  I lifted my right leg, smiled and sang with foam leaking from the corners of my mouth.   We all have days we are burdened with the ordinary, the mundane.  We all have days of loss and sadness.  It is really up to us how we face them.  Today I chose to listen to the words and have myself a smile.
    "Just because I'm losing
    Doesn't mean I'm lost
    Doesn't mean I'll stop
    Doesn't mean I'm across
    Just because I'm hurting
    Doesn't mean I'm hurt..."

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