The day pretty much sucked from dawn until now. It's 10:32 pm. I am frustrated and angry...hurt and confused. Last night I was prompted by my motivational Oprah moments to take that energy and put it toward something positive. Easy for them to say as they sit on the stage of Radio City on television....but I gave it my best shot. I needed something that got me going...I went with a little song by Kelly Clarkson that is slowly but surely becoming my new anthem. That music led me to a website where I finally filled out the intensive and detailed CHIP application in the hopes of getting some health benefits for the kids and even myself should the health benny gods choose to be so generous. I have more work ahead of me, more paperwork to deal with and an appointment or two wedged somewhere in between jobs and life. While that processed it was time to make dinner. A bit ago you might recall (should you be a faithful blog post reader) that I created natural food dyes for a job interview lesson. The red cabbage waves to me each time I open the fridge door. "Hey, whatcha gonna do with me?". It nags at me. I hate wasting food even if it IS just a goofy inexpensive cabbage. It bothers me so much so that I found a recipe to use it up. So tonight with the turkey tacos and Spanish rice we had a lovely new side dish. Shredded cabbage, grated carrots, fresh lime and orange juice, olive oil, salt and pepper and chopped cilantro made a refreshing slaw on the side.
So I will now try to get some rest with the scent of cilantro on my fingers, figures running through my mind and a little song that will continue to push me through these moments of pressure. I will also have a little personal chuckle at perhaps one of the funniest titles I have used thus far about a combination of things never before put together in the history of man. ;)
If it's Kelly Clarkson's Stronger, then we share an anthem. Great song and it's getting me through some mild PTSD from you know what. Literally for me, what didn't KILL me, is making me stronger. You are amazing and are getting stronger everyday, give yourself credit for all that you have accomplished.
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