Rip Up the Target Thermometer

     So as you know I joined WW last year.  I had lost up to 20 lbs at one point.  Some have found their way back to me.  Instead of seeing it as a failure I am taking the angles of "Hey, I didn't GAIN any weight this year" and "Look at me maintain a loss!".  But the sad truth is I'm pretty bummed that for my big 40 in a few months I won't have the new body I promised to myself.  Today I am trying another round.  It is starting with ripping up the old target chart.  I had one up on my wall near my bed for inspiration.  Kind of like the ones you see when a group is fund-raising.  I used a red marker to color in the goals.  Each goal had a reward.  The achievements slowed down and the goals were unattainable and therefore no longer an impetus to lose.  I was mad at my chart for what I couldn't even afford should I lose the pounds connected to that goal.  I was never the eat the whole container of ice cream kind of girl but I have learned something...when you feel pressure from every angle...the only comfort you might have in a day is that extra dollop of something fatty or going back for seconds.  That large coffee is bad enough in the morning but needing a second one on the way home from work is just bananas.  Also that mental fatigue drains you of energy so I need to find ways to relieve stress.  I also need friends to help inspire me because frankly I am pretty beat.  I have analyzed a great deal about myself this year as well as last year.  I also look back to when I felt I was at my best a long, long, long time ago.  I was rockin' it all and all at once.  I have to find the pathway back to that.  I also have to get real.  We fool ourselves in the hopes that others might be fooled as well.  Even if I am having salads everyday at work worth only a few mere points I am not moving enough.  So a new chart will go up.  This one will have dates broken down week by week.  It will have a specific timeline goal as opposed to being open to taking the next 27 1/2 years to lose it.  I will also not fill it up with goals that will just frustrate me.  I will be more sensible this time.  More of my new things will be about the good habits that come with the lifestyle I want and need to be living.  Mentally I am stronger and now physically I need to catch up.  They are tied to one another.  I need to feed my soul because it has been starving and for some reason no amount of rice seems to satiate it.  Today I am under points.  Here's to 364 more days just like that!!!